Ladies and Gentlemen... Elvis has left the building!
Not that Clam deserves to be compared to an icon but it seemed appropriate. He is finally gone. My mother went to the courthouse this morning and took out a restraining order. So for the next ten days at least(hopefully forever) I will not have to see that ugly face. I hope she follows through on this, I hope he is really out of my son's life and my own. I think once she sees how different it is here, how happy we can be without him, how we are all the financial support she needs, then she will feel like a fool for staying as long as she did. It may not be over but it is certainly a step toward a brighter future! :)
Today was just the best day. Evan was the cutest, best behaved toddler I know. The weather was gorgeous. We played outside for hours and then I even walked the pond with my cousin Kristen and her dog. It was the perfect day off and the whole time there was no worries or stressing out that he would come home and ruin my bliss. Now that he is gone I can focus on being the best mom/worker/student I can be. And without the constant demeaning maybe I can even start to take back the self respect I lost when the sperm doner broke me. (I jumped from one bad relationship directly into my mothers... not exactly the best for someone with pre-existing self esteem issues.)
So right now I revel in this sensation and I look forward with high hopes. The battle is over and I finally won.
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Hey Ericka,
ReplyDeleteI am glad that your stress has lessened up for a while. I do hope things get better for you and your son. I was a single mom for six years and it was hard, but I did it. I got preg. when I was 17, still finished high school, started working at a leather factory right after graduation, had my own house 10 mths. later and been movin' on up ever since. Struggles will always find you first, but right behind that is happiness, remember that, Ifound that out first hand. Take Care of yourself and Evan!
OMG, pinch me!! Are you serious? I hope with everything in me that it keeps up like this, that he stays gone...Oh, I bet you and Evan had the best day yesterday!!! I'm so happy!
ReplyDeleteThank you Catrina, everyone kept telling me things would get better now that actually seems to be the case!
ReplyDeleteKatie- he is really gone, but the battle rages on... he's made many threats in the past of calling DSS on me and who knows what else he will do. My rent has also tripled but it is ALL more than worth it. Maybe I can even start dating now... who knows...
WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, but if he no longer lives there AND the land lady wants him gone, maybe you could talk her into replacing his name with yours...that way YOU can take out the restraining order against him, and with that done the children's services people or DSS will look at it and go "ok, what? This guy terrorized this family in more ways than one, and he calls us on HER?" you know what I mean?
ReplyDeleteNot only dating, but now we can come up for a visit... :D